Lesson learned with a side of rambling

I'm in a little distress because I know I had a personal revelation last night or early this morning, but I can't remember. I remember thinking I don't need to write it down, because of course I remember this. Well, of course, I was wrong. This is to be a lesson to me, ALWAYS WRITE IT DOWN and in GREAT DETAIL. I've been praying for guidance as most do, but in a different way. I actually ask God to give me visions. Many that I have talked to in the past think it is wrong to ask for such specifics, but I disagree.

I ask for visions because although they are so real and sometimes scare the crap out of me, I feel i can handle them. See, I believe in the impossible in such a way that many think I'm silly or ridiculous. I remember praying for help one time but begging God not to send an angel because I didn't think I could handle that. Not long before my prayer I had been reading something in the bible where God did send an angel to someone. So in my mind God was listening to my prayer thinking I'll send an angel. Upon that thought I was terrified and was like No God, not that.

So anyways, last night (or early this morning) I had some kind of vision. It's definately not the first time it's happened. I should have thought of before and known that the memory slips away so fast on such things.

"Teach me to do your will, for you are my God. May your spirit guide me on ground that is level. For your name's sake, LORD, give me life; in your justice lead me out of distress." ~ Psalm 143: 10-11

I would encourage the people of God to ask for the gifts of the spirit. I ask for visions because through them I find God's will in a way that encourages and helps me to see God's will. It is my preferred way to be guided. You know what? I ask and he delivers.

Many ask and dont expect to receive remember Luke 11: 9-13 " And I tell you, ask and you will receive; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives; and the one who seeks, finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. What father among you would hand his son a snake when he asks for a fish? Or hand him a scorpion when he asks for an egg? If you then, who are wicked, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the Father in heaven give the holy Spirit to those who ask him?"

Something to remember is that God does give, but on his terms not yours. That is something I get hung up on sometimes. I won't receive a vision every time I ask. I ask for the gift of visons and I get them when God has something he wants to reveal to me.